Well we certainly had a messy Christmas. I'm completely exhausted. Over-indulgence and family stress has taken it's toll. My mother finally left today after 10 days - I think we were probably both fairly relieved - she's been having to play musical beds and climb over teenagers for the last few days. My house had 30 + people in on NY's eve and about 10 people to stay the night. It is still reeling from the shock. I keep walking into a room and then walking out again in borror. I just can't. Quite. Face. It. Yet. The kitten is majorly stressful too because my other cat hates it and I think if she got anywhere near it she'd probably eat it. We have to keep them in separate rooms and the kitten keeps disappearing behind things and getting lost. He's very cute though. Everyone loves him. Hopefully it will all settle down soon. For a little inspiration and a new approach to 2012 I have just taken a look at my book of Buddhist quotes in order to feel uplifted. But the one for today says:- "Hear me? In our future lives it will be hard to regain this previous human state, with all tits privileges and freedoms. The moment of our death is impossible to predict. Who can say? Perhaps we will die tonight." Great. HOW IS THAT HELPFUL WITH MY DETOX IN JANUARY PLAN?? Now all I want to do is buy myself a packet of 20 fags and go to the pub and drink profusely if I'm going to die later.