In haste, I just wanted to say a huge thank you to everyone for all their help and support and messages and nights out and birthday presents and shoulder’s to cry on and just everything thats good about being sad.

I’m off to pick up my children from school so that we can begin our long slow drive to my mother’s. My father’s funeral is tomorrow and I’m absolutely dreading it. I’ve written my Tribute. I just don’t know how I’m going to read it.

I just read it out loud in front of the mirror (because apparently that is what you are meant to do) and cried all the way through. Then I went upstairs to pack. Put my bag on to my bed, opened it up and a white feather literally flew out. I kid you not. Unbelievable. Nothing else was in the bag. There he is then, telling me that I’m going to be OK. Reminding me not to break down. He wouldn’t have wanted me to do that.

I also have purple hair. Not sure how that happened. I specifically remember telling the hairdresser to make me look like Cheryl Cole. Well I don’t. I look like an aubergine with puffy eyes.

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17 Comments
  • Chris
    November 25, 2010

    I hope it all goes well tomorrow I am sure you will read your tribute wonderfully, you wouldnt be human if you didnt find it difficult but its amazing how we find the strength in these situations. thinking of youxx

  • Tim (aka Dotterel)
    November 25, 2010

    Oh, I’m so sorry! I’ve only just found out by reading this post of your loss; good luck with the tribute.

  • Anna
    November 25, 2010

    Thinking of you all and of your father.

  • Muddling Along
    November 25, 2010

    Will be thinking of you tomorrow – send love and our thoughts xxx

  • TheMadHouse
    November 25, 2010

    I hope tomorrow brings you peace and joy celebrating the wonderful life that your father had. My thoughts are with you

  • Sinead
    November 25, 2010

    All the best for tomorrow, I’m sure your tribute will be beautiful xxx

  • kelloggsville
    November 25, 2010

    Another white feather is the best sign you could possibly have. Breath deep, stand tall and know that you are not alone. Remember footprints. You will not be alone and your father is showing you he is with you all the way. All my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family tomorrow, God Bless x

  • libby
    November 25, 2010

    Hope it goes well. He will be there with you.

  • Chic Mama
    November 25, 2010

    Wishing you lots of strength tomorrow, so glad that sign came to you. X

  • aussie friend
    November 25, 2010

    Good luck for tomorrow. I’m sure you’ll get through it and he will be up there somewhere looking down and feeling so proud. It doesn’t matter if you cry – he was a wonderful man and he deserves to be cried over. He would understand. K xx

  • Laura
    November 25, 2010

    Thinking of you lovely x

  • Mud
    November 26, 2010

    So sorry – I’ve been away over this period and missed hearing about your sad loss. How lovely to be getting those little messages of love and support – whether it is from your famile and friends around you, or from the white feathers. Sending you hugs and support for the funeral. He will be so proud of you.
    x

  • di foden
    November 26, 2010

    We’ll be thinking of you xx

  • karen
    November 26, 2010

    I am sure you will have done the most beautiful tribute, and it will be good to have it behind you.. Sending thoughts your way, hoping it went well x

  • auntiegwen
    November 26, 2010

    Sending you much love x

  • Expat Mum
    November 26, 2010

    I’m sure you will deliver the eulogy perfectly.
    Thinking of you and your family.
    x

  • Crystal Jigsaw
    November 27, 2010

    I hope it all went as well as can be expected. Your dad would have been extremely proud to hear you read a tribute.

    CJ xx