This bloody weather is getting me down. Snow in March. Unheard of. So is the fact that my mother has had a hip operation and I can be of little use to her. She’s three hours drive away and I have a job and children to look after and much guilt. She’s coping well but it’s so sad for her that my father is no longer around to make her cups of tea and look after her in her hour of need and it’s very hard to think of her struggling on her own and as her only daughter I am feeling frankly useless. She’s being very brave. Far more brave than I would be. I’m sure I would insist on all my children taking two weeks off from life to look after me. The plan to move her closer hasn’t yet worked and whilst we are all doing all we can and friends are stepping in it’s really not great. A neighbour sent me a photo of her leg today. To be honest, I was nearly sick. She has a bruise that has crawled up to her waist and dropped down to her foot. Tempting to share with you, but really it’s horrible, so I won’t.
I had planned to go and see her this weekend. But then it proved too difficult because my children had various parties and friend’s staying and I can’t really leave them to it. I’d had a bad dream about my 12 year old son having to get to the party on the bus without me and I was therefore a little nervous for him because it was all the kids from his old school…and it was fancy dress. After about four hours in a party shop trying on all manner of inappropriate gear (including a pair of plastic boobies) he chose a zip up black and white panda costume. I had visions of him having to get to the party wearing a panda suit on the bus and then turning up only to find it was all a joke and everybody else was in normal clothes. However, obviously that wasn’t the case and he loved seeing all his old school friends again….it’s hard when you have to change schools for whatever reason and he misses his mates from there. However, at least he is at the age when all the schools start mingling a little on the social scene, so hopefully he’ll be able to stay more in touch.