What a spectacular disaster. I am up for a travel blogger award BUT am so far removed from anything vaguely resembling a travel blogger it’s a joke.
Guess what just happened. I’ve been invited to go to America on a blog trip. ALL EXPENSES PAID!!!! To a gorgeous location. Which would have been perfect because as a travel blogger, it is sort of important to be able to travel. Whilst it’s never easy to get away – as a single mother of three children it’s even harder. Even with the help of family and friends there is a lot of juggling to be done, but of course I could make it work. I HAD TO.
I looked at the dates. Heart sinking moment followed by brain persuading me it was all going to be fine. Talked to as many people as I could find who were going to agree that I should go. Then some others who thought I probably shouldn’t but I knew in my heart that I was going to have to decline the invitation. The trip is right in the middle of my daughter’s GCSE’s. I’m sure she’s going to do just as well without me….but what if something went wrong – what if she wasn’t fed and watered properly or somebody else forgot to pick her up for school or she was stressy and needed a hug/cup of tea/new mascara/reassuring words/a laugh/a chat/a clean skirt/a sharp pencil/a person to test her/…..that’s my job. I can do all those things. Not very well. But nevertheless, you can’t underestimate that sort of support when you need it.
How grown up is that?
I am having a proper grown up mother moment interspersed with angry little tantrum like sparks for the unfairness of life sometimes (picture Rumplestiltskin).
However, aside from the blog – which of course shouldn’t be dictating the entire focus of my life – my responsibilities as a mother are top of the list – anyway, essentially I’m a family blogger – “FAMILY AFFAIRS AND OTHER MATTERS” – it would be a little inappropriate to ignore the “FAMILY” element at this point.
So there we are then.
That is probably the last invitation I will ever get.
Such is life.
Right decision made on this occasion.